Autumns bright, allmost hard light is colouring trees more radiant than they would be without that sunshine. But those yellow and red leaves have also there own insider light.  I  have noticed, when they in most grey weather, allmost as if clouds were heavy as lead and would come down at level of our heads, autumn leaves just shines anyway like neon coloured warning signs against all darkness...

We are about  to step through the gate of "kaamos", as it`s called here. It means that long and dark period, where the sun is a very rare guest and even if it appears, it has lost it`s power and brightness. In Lapland there is a period for many months, when sun doesen`t show it glorious face at all.  These last sunny days will remow kaamos a bit further on, but there it waits under it`s black rug patiently, for it knows that nothing will change the fact that it allways, every year has had it`s very own permission to come, take and hide the light from us under it`s rug...

When i was young, teenager, autumn and it`s darkness allways ment a kind of depression. Even now, when I think of it, I see like dark, narrow space, as if it would be under ground, and it is not one off my favorit memories. I don`t know why that nasty acquaintance allways knew to come in the same time, but luckily it has in older age stayed as steady companion, so I  had got used to it and don`t get confused or frightened of that grate change from  light to darkness...

Life it self is  a constant changing. Human relationships are like getting from kaamos to lighter time and then back again. It seems endless circle. We are not easily understandable, and in our fear we might do what ever, that nothing wouldn`t change. But we don`t notice that the change has allready happened. Change has come from the first negative thought, word, act. So you can`t get it  dissappear with fear. But if one thing can change into something totally other, that can happen to  all of universe, to all people. To get used to new situation and live in it humanly is maybe the school what we need. We have to change our skin many times during lifetime. Time by time we can get stronger and fear les. Maybe it is our purpose of life, leave our snake skins like layers one by one and finally reach the true skin of us, our real nature of loving, brave and positive humanbeings which help eachothers, as if that would be the most natural thing in life.